Today is the 28th April 2007 . Second post for the day for now . I've been trying to work on my tutorials the whole day after the first post but i only manage to finish ITAB only, and one question of PACC . I'm gonna fail if i were to travel at this speed .

Some people in my class are still worried that they'll fall into the Foward Module Student Catergory after the presentation video . Man, they're making me nervous too . However it is, things doesn't get any better .

I'm gonna have to make a visit to Tan Tock Seng Hospital tomorrow to visit my grandpa . He's . . . unable to consume any food now, one and only thing he has for all meals is milk, milk and milk transferred to his stomach in a tube through his nose . His situation now is so alike to that of Ah Gu's . This reminded Mom of Ah Gu and she's starting to lose sleep . As for Dad, having seen his father in a critical situation, he doesn't feel any better . In fact, Mom told me that Dad thinks living in this world is meaningless . . . and he just came back from drinking with his friends .

I can still recall what happened to Ah Gu, almost as clear as if it just happened last month . I recall how he was before he got cancer, how he changed when his body was attacked by cancer cells, how he was before he died and of course, i remembered his funeral so clear like a polished crystal . His death has bought along massive destruction to everybody's mood . Despite the period after his death, Mom and granny still can't get over with it, and now it's grandpa . What more of a miracle does god wants from us ?

Just why is it so hard for the world to walk towards happiness and live their lifes like a bed of roses ? I don't understand, not at all .

That's for now, i'm burning midnight oil for tutorials . Wish me luck . Goodnight .